The trip was very draining for me. Each day had different terrors
which gnawed at me. I was terrified of knocking on strangers'
doors and telling them the gospel. I did not have much of a
choice though--I was supposed to be modelling this to the Bolivians, so
regardless of how inept I thought I was, I had to do it.
After I
got a feeling for what peoples' reactions were going to be, and I had a
better idea of how the conversation was going to go, I felt more
comfortable, although I never got to the point where I enjoyed it.
I was also scared of discipleship--I had a few
pages of introductory Bible
studies in Spanish, but not a real clear idea of the larger goals.
And we were responsible for the content of three evening
meetings.
I think part of it was that I felt kind of tossed into the team
lead role without a clear idea of what I was supposed to be doing.
Fortunately, Richard Wong, from my church, gave me
just-in-time training in the
evenings when I sent out my prayer updates, but it would have been nice
to get an idea of the high-level goals and values I was supposed to be
working towards.
I was also a bit troubled by the way we shared
the gospel. It generally worked best to use the evangecube,
because the Bolivians were more familiar with it than the tract, and
were more willing to present the gospel themselves. However,
it bothered me that I never figured out a way to do it in such a way
that I could be sure that they really understood a point. So
we generally just said the whole thing and invited them to come to Christ
at the end. I would have liked to have seen someone model a
more interactive presentation to get ideas on how to talk someone through
the gospel, while at the same time answering their questions along the
way.